ugh.

I keep hoping to write the post where I get to say, "Mom had a great day!  She feels great!"  But today is not that day.  Today is a very slightly better day simply because she didn't feel up to getting a transfusion and she didn't have to have one.  She is still getting nauseated a lot and feeling horrible and run down.  They gave her some medicine to hopefully help with the upset stomach this morning.  I am praying that right now she is resting and that her body will start getting the memo that it is time to start feeling better!!  Pronto!

I hate not being able to do anything for her.  I hate that I can't be with her, even if I couldn't do anything for her even if I was.  I hate opening my computer to see her beautiful smile and knowing that right now she not only doesn't feel like smiling but that she feels horrible.  Probably the worst she has ever felt in her life. 

But I trust in the Lord my God.  That He is mighty to save.  That He is the great Healer.  That He knows my mom and loves her so much more than me.  That He has a good plan for her.  That He is not only her creator, but her Father.  And He loves and cares for her in a tender way.  That He has provided his hands through the doctors and nurses and my dad and aunt nancy.  That He hears my cry - her cries.  That He is there in the meadow and in the valley of the shadow.  What do I - we - have but to trust?